Good Bye Mctopia.

[mattjtv]

I wish I could have atleast been tolerated.

[Emmylol1]

mattjtv wrote:I wrote this for tobi to send to you yesterday. But:

"Hey Emmy, I know you aren't willing to see this from me since I've done it twice before and I blew it. I know I've changed, I have become closer to my enemies and became a better person. It might not seem like it, since I made that post falsely accusing you. I miss when we were close friends on the server, and I'm hoping we can go somewhere near a fraction of that stage again. I hate myself for being the guy that I am, or the guy I was. When I was a jerk, I felt better about myself since it seemed like people were lower than I was and I was getting to the top, but then I realized how other people feel, and found myself dealing with a load of guilt I'd never thought I'd have to bear. I was choking on air, sucking through a straw. I really wanted to wrap up all the broken bones I have with others, especially you. You sensed quickly when I became a jerk and you tried to stop me but I ignored the advice. I fully understand that you probably won't ever be my friend again, and I'm risking a lot by writing this. You were one of the best admins and I was in shock when you went on temporary leave. I tried to blame everything on Tristan, but I know my attitude towards you brought you lower and lower until you almost left for good, by my hand. Writing this actually provides me with some relief, I feel happy again. I have butterflies in my stomach when I write stuff like this, but in a relaxing way that I wish I could feel all the time. I know you probably won't accept this but I had to apologize somehow. Thank you for taking the time to read all this, and I hope you can come back soon.

Sincerely,
MattJTV"

Finally it let me log onto the forums.
I did read that, and that is what sparked this topic.

[mattjtv]

Ah, I see. I tried. It was worth fighting for, but this was not worth dying for.

[Emmylol1]

Mcman, Meta, and l3git... IM NOT DEAD!! Atleast not yet ;P We will still talk C:

[Metazard]

Emmylol1 wrote:Mcman, Meta, and l3git... IM NOT DEAD!! Atleast not yet ;P We will still talk C:

Who would want to talk to me, I'm sooo boring

[Emmylol1]

Metazard wrote:

Emmylol1 wrote:Mcman, Meta, and l3git... IM NOT DEAD!! Atleast not yet ;P We will still talk C:

Who would want to talk to me, I'm sooo boring

OH HELL NOOOO NOT TRUE DOOD! Remember tha Skype call, You, me, robby, Alex, and Louis.... You are not boring.

[mattjtv]

I go as far as I can possibly go to become atleast a fraction of a decent human being an you throw it all away like I am worth nothing. This seems like a hobo trying to marry a princess. Who am I trying to impress? It could be you, myself, or other people. I don't even know anymore.

[Emmylol1]

mattjtv wrote:I go as far as I can possibly go to become atleast a fraction of a decent human being an you throw it all away like I am worth nothing. This seems like a hobo trying to marry a princess. Who am I trying to impress? It could be you, myself, or other people. I don't even know anymore.

You can try all you want to make yourself the greatest for everyone else on the server. As for me, you broke me. And you will never be looked at the same in my eyes. You started the big reason of why Im leaving. Don't beat yourself up, everyone makes mistakes. But I cant force myself to forgive you, even in the slightest.

[mattjtv]

I am a fish who tries to run, when I should just swim away. I won't lay on my head on the ground trying to become a decent human in your eyes. I should get up and walk away and learn from mistakes.

[XxL3GiTSkULLzxX7]

Emmylol1 wrote:Mcman, Meta, and l3git... IM NOT DEAD!! Atleast not yet ;P We will still talk C:

We'll always talk >.-

On duh skype and duh kik and I be liking things on the IG