Until Next Time...

[tobiii1004]

Okay. I've got some bad news.

Just a warning...you're going to read this and feel as if I've changed. Gone with the old, caring Tobi, in with somethin cruel, I guess. Maybe that's true, but I sure hope it's not.

Now, the bad news.

So, my mom knows everything. I knew it, to be honest. Her instinct is better than that. She knew all along, and I knew it too.

That's the catch though.

It's not the fact that she knows that's pulling me away again. It's the aspect of my future that is uncertain, unstable, and overall in great danger.

I want to go to an Ivy League, elite college, in case you did not know. It's been my dream since I was small and I have full intentions of going to the best university I possibly can.

Getting into an Ivy League college is more than straight A's. It's extra curriculars. Dedication. The desire of education and the mad pursuit to get to where you want to be.

At the rate I'm going, I'm never going to get there.

And as much as I lie to myself, I know that trying to live a secret, double life is not going to propel me to the future. In fact, as much as it pains me to say it, it's been a weight that does not strengthen me.

Especially with my mother knowing. There's no way she'll let me have anything back anytime in the future.

My heart is broken into pieces writing this, but it's with utmost clarity that I realize:

I must go.

And now, an address to the McTopia community.

I wholly love each and every one of you.

You've been here for me through thick and thin. You've seen me at good and bad, built my confidence. You've seen me build up my life, and you were here to support me when things fell and crumbled. I love you guys so much. Words can't express what you've done for me, and it's with a heavy, broken heart that I leave.

Please please note: It is not due to the community that I'm leaving. It's due to an internal conflict that has torn me apart for much too long. It has nothing to do with my relationship status with all of you.

You have made me into a patient, kind, caring, happy, whole person, something I've always wanted to be.

I love you guys so much.

When I say I have to go, I need to go, though. And if I'm truly honest with myself, without Minecraft, I've been more productive and it's been healthy for me. It hurts to say, because the fantastic memories I have of you guys are killing me. But I have to go. Too much depends on it, almost all of my future depends on me being a productive person.

I will most likely not be texting, Skype messaging, Skype calling, responding to any of my social media, or Kiking at all. It's nothing against you guys. But it kills me to be unfaithful to a promise I made to my family, and hurt my family by wasting myself.

I honestly love you all.

Keep doing what you're doing. If you do, you'll put countless more smiles on countless more people's faces.

I am giving up on the inner conflict. It's pushed me to a limit unfathomable.

I won't do individuals again, since this is my third goodbye. But if you want to hear what I have to say about you, text/message me, and I'll tell you everything. But that will be our last message until I get into the school of my dreams.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

I sound like a complete jerk. Well, I am being one.

This is my first goodbye.
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This is my second goodbye.
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My opinions of you all have not changed. You are all lovely lovely people and I will never forget you, for as long as I shall live.

Hey, maybe as soon as I get into the school of my dreams, I'll stop by Australia, or New York, or Pennsylvania, or Minnesota, or California, or Oregon, or wherever I need to go to see you guys.

I'm sorry for being absolutely horrible. This is horrific. I can't believe I'm doing this, to be frank.

I just need to settle my life a little.

Goodbye, McTopia. I love you guys so much, I can't describe it. Thank you for two absolutely brilliant years.

"Byeee~",
"I'm out",
"Goodbye<3",
"Adios",
"Catcha later",
"Signing off",
"See y'all",
"Catcha on the flippside".

Think of this as a completely temporary break. All I need to do is settle my lil life, and I'll be good. As soon as I figure everything out, I cross my heart I will come back.

I love you guys. You got it.

Until next time. I promise you'll see me around again.

You guys rock.

Yours,
Tobi.

[Cori83]

Not okay.

[hailstorm]

Stay gold, Tobi. Stay gold.

[Kalashnikov]

Reach for the stars

[Mcmanaway1]

Hope you do well in life!

[novastorm42]

I think I speak for everyone when I say

We are all going to miss you. And

Good Luck.

[deahtworlds]

I really appreciate that your going for your dreams Tobi.

We will stay strong for you!

[mattjtv]

Best of luck to your success in life

[tobiii1004]

Cori83 wrote:Not okay.

I'll be okay, don't worry.

hailstorm wrote:Stay gold, Tobi. Stay gold.

Thank you so much. I'll hang in there.

Kalashnikov wrote:Reach for the stars

Thanks love, I'll be around

Mcmanaway1 wrote:Hope you do well in life!

Thanks Drooby Dooby Doo (:

novastorm42 wrote:I think I speak for everyone when I say

We are all going to miss you. And

Good Luck.

Thanks a bunch, nova, I'll need it (:

deahtworlds wrote:I really appreciate that your going for your dreams Tobi.

We will stay strong for you!

That means so much Charles, thanks dude, you rock

mattjtv wrote:Best of luck to your success in life

Thanks a bunch, matt(:

I'll still be around, guys. I'll pop in and out every once in a while, just to check up. Just think of this as a very temporary break, just until I straighten out my life. Once I settle everything, I promise I'll be back in no time(:

[challenger410]

Oh jeez Louis.

Even though i kinda saw this coming, I'm sad that it finally came. Even though you said you won't reply. If for some reason you need anything, I'll be here. I am your ODBF after all. See you much much later Tobes.