2013-09-02, 05:47 PM
I am taking a break from mctopia. I don't know how long, days, weeks, months, a year, im not truly sure. I have been on this server for about 3 years now. It was fun I do have to say, I met many people. But I don't want this to sound like im quiting cause im truly not. So I guess this post is to tell you why im taking a break? Yes? I don't know XD Anyways
People say I have been acting bossy and bitchy and they are totally correct. Every since the incident with Matt I have noticed this more in me. Mainly when I get done with being bitchy and stuff and when I do act this way I kinda don't control me self. I feel that since I have so many years invested in this server that I should be treated with more respect. Im an admin so in many cases I should have more respect than others, but for some of you that is not the case and you think I should have the same respect as anyone else. Which I guess is true in a way. Anyways XD I have noticed these changes in moods and for the past month I have been trying to fix it.
You guys badgered me on the forums for things I have been trying to fix and that brought my confidence level down 100% as if what I was trying to do to fix this was not working. So im taking a break. If you guys can remember back when I was doing that building contest, I havnt told anyone cause its kinda personal. But I almost had a seizure from the stress involved with that contest. And I have been more stressed lately with the server so to avoid an incident like before, I think a break will help.
Many of you guys don't like me because enforce the rules in ways that no one else does. And when you see that what im doing is correct and you are wrong, you get mad at me. And I understand, that's why when you try to defend yourselves and you know your wrong, I like to use my trusty sarcasm.
" title="Smile"> Back on a server in which I try not to bring up, I was bullied by the players because I didn't stay strong to what I said, I let things slide, and no one listened to me. I was a co-owner of this server in which members were beating me down and I didn't have the guts to not let them do that and to tell them no. I decided to learn how to be more strict and not let people step on me like the way they used to. I for the most part, thought it worked. But then people started to frustrate me and push me, to the limit, in which you saw my bitchy-ness and power-driven self come out. Honestly if it wasn't for the argument and episode matt started over a month ago, I wouldn't be here where I am today. I would have still been working with myself to change, and without that outburst of Matts, I would most likely been a really good friend/admin by now. But im not obviously. Kinda why im writing this XD
Im having problems at home so I kinda feel like I can be myself and you know, feel like I have responsibility and a duty to be on the server and help others. I feel like with my rank comes with the ability to do what I want and say what I want as long as its reasonable. So that is mainly the reason why I act the way I do. And I am NOT trying to get sympathy here. I really don't care about what you guys think about my leaving if you have negative things to say. You guys are like my little siblings in a way when im on the server. I feel I have more authority over you. (im the youngest sibling in my family) You guys are kinda like my family.
Say what you must. Say your opinions, I really don't care, let your anger out, or not. I don't care. But for the many of you who want me to leave, im going to take a break. And for the people who don't want me to leave, im sorry. :/. I have been thinking about taking a break from the server for about a month now ever since the whole Matt episode. School is coming up and I shouldn't be worrying about a server in a video game. I shouldn't be worried about something that I don't get paid to do, or something that dosnt give me credit. Academics and sports is the main thing I should be worrying about even though I would never ever give up this server.
You guys can still talk to me for however long im going to be taking a break, I still don't know XD Take it one day at a time until I get the balls to come back on, or when I get so many people to talk me back into it and to talk me up. I don't know. The main places you can still talk to me, cause I really still want to keep in touch with all of you, are
Skype- Emmylol11 (two ones)
kik-emmylawl1
Email(which I almost never check so it can be a last resort XD) emmypoo111@yahoo.com
People say I have been acting bossy and bitchy and they are totally correct. Every since the incident with Matt I have noticed this more in me. Mainly when I get done with being bitchy and stuff and when I do act this way I kinda don't control me self. I feel that since I have so many years invested in this server that I should be treated with more respect. Im an admin so in many cases I should have more respect than others, but for some of you that is not the case and you think I should have the same respect as anyone else. Which I guess is true in a way. Anyways XD I have noticed these changes in moods and for the past month I have been trying to fix it.
You guys badgered me on the forums for things I have been trying to fix and that brought my confidence level down 100% as if what I was trying to do to fix this was not working. So im taking a break. If you guys can remember back when I was doing that building contest, I havnt told anyone cause its kinda personal. But I almost had a seizure from the stress involved with that contest. And I have been more stressed lately with the server so to avoid an incident like before, I think a break will help.
Many of you guys don't like me because enforce the rules in ways that no one else does. And when you see that what im doing is correct and you are wrong, you get mad at me. And I understand, that's why when you try to defend yourselves and you know your wrong, I like to use my trusty sarcasm.
" title="Smile"> Back on a server in which I try not to bring up, I was bullied by the players because I didn't stay strong to what I said, I let things slide, and no one listened to me. I was a co-owner of this server in which members were beating me down and I didn't have the guts to not let them do that and to tell them no. I decided to learn how to be more strict and not let people step on me like the way they used to. I for the most part, thought it worked. But then people started to frustrate me and push me, to the limit, in which you saw my bitchy-ness and power-driven self come out. Honestly if it wasn't for the argument and episode matt started over a month ago, I wouldn't be here where I am today. I would have still been working with myself to change, and without that outburst of Matts, I would most likely been a really good friend/admin by now. But im not obviously. Kinda why im writing this XDIm having problems at home so I kinda feel like I can be myself and you know, feel like I have responsibility and a duty to be on the server and help others. I feel like with my rank comes with the ability to do what I want and say what I want as long as its reasonable. So that is mainly the reason why I act the way I do. And I am NOT trying to get sympathy here. I really don't care about what you guys think about my leaving if you have negative things to say. You guys are like my little siblings in a way when im on the server. I feel I have more authority over you. (im the youngest sibling in my family) You guys are kinda like my family.
Say what you must. Say your opinions, I really don't care, let your anger out, or not. I don't care. But for the many of you who want me to leave, im going to take a break. And for the people who don't want me to leave, im sorry. :/. I have been thinking about taking a break from the server for about a month now ever since the whole Matt episode. School is coming up and I shouldn't be worrying about a server in a video game. I shouldn't be worried about something that I don't get paid to do, or something that dosnt give me credit. Academics and sports is the main thing I should be worrying about even though I would never ever give up this server.
You guys can still talk to me for however long im going to be taking a break, I still don't know XD Take it one day at a time until I get the balls to come back on, or when I get so many people to talk me back into it and to talk me up. I don't know. The main places you can still talk to me, cause I really still want to keep in touch with all of you, are
Skype- Emmylol11 (two ones)
kik-emmylawl1
Email(which I almost never check so it can be a last resort XD) emmypoo111@yahoo.com
