matttana3 (Made By Metazard)

[BrookeTheSheep]

You wrote this to tobi-
v_v I hate myself right now

I'm sorry this ever happened Tobes. I liked you since I actually got to know you. When you made your forums account, I knew you were perfect for me. I'm not going to force you into something you don't want, though. I respect you too much, to ever do anything you don't want. you're asking a lot from me Tobi, and you know that. but if this is how you want it to be, I guess its best.

No, screw that. Why even lie to myself? I don't think I can do it. I can try my best, but even that wont save me. You're already here, already in my heart. The door has closed, and there's no way out. I can't just say your "just a friend". Nor can you. You know better, and so do I. We made this agreement 3 times Tobi. 3 TIMES! It's eventually going to happen again, because it was meant to be. It has to be that. That's the only explanation I have.


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I don't think that is a good thing to say when you are dating someone.
In my opinion.

[challenger410]

That's the only thing you show anyone. >.< yeah, that's bad, but you know what? I apologized. You don't have to accept, but if you don't, that's your problem. One thing I've learned is that if I feel that I have made my best attempt for forgiveness, and I've tried my best, than that's all I can do. No point on dwelling on the past, to fix things that cant be fixed. Everyone makes mistakes, and mine was extremely big. but if i wanted to, i could be holding grudges on half the server. I've learned to forgive. 4 of my best McTopian friend's, were at some point people I couldn't stand. one of them being you. you're still one of my friends, even if I'm not one of your's. But every time, that note come up, it's a punch in my gut. Reminding me of the thing I'm trying to leave in the past. Every time, i feel like i left it there. someone brings the damn thing up again >.< starting all the crap over. I've learned from my mistake. That's why god made me do it. He wanted ME, to learn from it. He wanted US to know how much it hurts people. God does everything for a reason. Even if the reason is hard to see, it's never for nothing. EVER.

[BrookeTheSheep]

challenger410 wrote:That's the only thing you show anyone. >.< yeah, that's bad, but you know what? I apologized. You don't have to accept, but if you don't, that's your problem. One thing I've learned is that if I feel that I have made my best attempt for forgiveness, and I've tried my best, than that's all I can do. No point on dwelling on the past, to fix things that cant be fixed. Everyone makes mistakes, and mine was extremely big. but if i wanted to, i could be holding grudges on half the server. I've learned to forgive. 4 of my best McTopian friend's, were at some point people I couldn't stand. one of them being you. you're still one of my friends, even if I'm not one of your's. But every time, that note come up, it's a punch in my gut. Reminding me of the thing I'm trying to leave in the past. Every time, i feel like i left it there. someone brings the damn thing up again >.< starting all the crap over. I've learned from my mistake. That's why god made me do it. He wanted ME, to learn from it. He wanted US to know how much it hurts people. God does everything for a reason. Even if the reason is hard to see, it's never for nothing. EVER.

I don't think you get it.
You dumped ME.
If you didn't, I would have forgiven you and forgot about the whole thing.