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[Beast0262]

Emmylol1 wrote:You really pushed me to my limits. I started to hate myself the past couple days. Today I was about to leave to server. I was about to quit the server and take a break. You had 3 people on your side who called me a horrible admin and it made me feel like shit. I cried today for a very long time. Every time you hinted an insult or just plain out insulted me hurt. It really did. I tried so hard to ignore you the past week. I have had many people yet again come to me on Skype and complain about how you are such an ass and they don't want to be on the server. Hell you even got serialfun to not even want to talk to you.
"I think Niko and Emmy would make great mods " title="Very Happy">" That hurt

"emmy4mod, i disagree her as having admin in my opinion." That really hurt.

"Shooting at a horse is not common sense, just trolling. Trolling is when you be a prick just cause you can, and harassment is repetitive, continuous, direct hardcore trolling. And I feel the "respect staff" rule is like the "respect your elders" rule in life. Elders need to earn the respect, and if they don't respect back, nobody will listen to them. Kind of the same thing I staff, and I respect staff members who show respect back." That stung.

"You just explained my expectations, which really isn't a bad thing. And there are four more admins other than you and emmy that can say yes or no, so I still have a chance " title="Wink">" I wanted to punch you in the face so very hard.

I could prob go through many more topics and find things you posted that hurt my feelings tremendously. This server is basically family to me. Its been 3 years since I joined and I still play on this server for many reasons. But the number one reason is the friends I have made. That's why I have stuck around for so long, I don't want to leave the friend I have made and the great community. And for me to feel like leaving the server because one dickwad was harassing me and making me feel like shit, that was heartbreaking.

I will except your apology for which everyone should have a second chance, but it will never be the same for you on the server. You are going to have to earn your respect back.

I would really like to take what I said back, I totally said that out of anger and really something I shouldn't have said, it really just brought me to the peak of the teapot when you said "I'm the new head admin now because that's what dungeon said", I really don't know why It annoyed me so much as it shouldn't have, I took it the wrong way and saw it as you were bragging and boasting which I'm sure it wasn't intended in that way. it also pissed me off when you expanded that fence colliding into our build because "you guys needed more space" and this made me almost wanna punch my dog in the mouth. Although it was the right thing to get a taste of my own medicine. And that build earlier was in no way intended to lag the server or "troll" you guys. I built that for someone because they like potatoes. I would really like to take back some stuff I have said to you and replenish the hole. I hope you can forgive me Emmy even though I know it will be a long process before it happens.