For everyone

[mattjtv]

Hi guys, it is Matt. I have been different for a month or so now. For some people, I am the nicest person on the server. For others, I am normal. And for some, I am the worst soul to ever be on the server. I am making this post to apologize to those I have hurt badly. I have made enemies with Mcmanaway1, Dragonkilla76, Chaos_Ls_91, and mostly, our admin Emmylol1.

I have been a complete douche for the last month, or maybe the whole time I have been on the server. You guys have oddly been some of my best friends I have ever met, real life and not real. The odd part is, you all hate my guts now, for good reasons. I have been a very self-centered, stubborn, lying and trolling fartbox. I have been like this for a while, but all this came out when Chaos_Ls_91 quit my server from the staff position, and I was pretty depressed. I came on mad as a hornet, trying to relieve myself, and when he came on, I totally lost all sense. The next day, I completely locked my admin app because I know I would never become an admin from that. I still might never get the rank, but hopefully by this post, I can get my gut less hated on this server.

I really want to apologize to emmylol1. I have been harassing her, dissing all her friends, and I have been a really in a really cocky and know-it-all attitude. Not only did I make her angry, but I kept on doing things to egg on her anger even more towards me until we are here right now reading this post. I have been the modern day SuperCooper, and if there was one friendship I really regret destroying, it would definitely be this one. I am really sorry for the way I have been acting, thinking I am the boss of the server, when really I am just as special as everyone else on the server.

This apology was the hardest to think of, and when I started this post, I never thought I would make this apology. But I want to apologize to Chaos_Ls_91. Chaos, I know I have been a horrible owner on my server, and did not treat you and respect you the way you deserved. I should have just gotten on the server the next day after, instead of taking a sharp turn from emotions to this server. I know I have done things to make you hate me before, but I want to apologize to you in general and be able to be buddies again. I did not show how much I appreciated your work on my server, and I want to say that I really appreciate how you helped my server, and you were a really good friend.

I also want to apologize to Challenger410. I have been arguing with staff on my admin app, and got you really mad to the point where you didn't want to hear about me. I apologize for the way I have been acting towards you on the server and the forums. I have not been a good player on the server, and you saw that really easily. I saw the way you were so chill after you were accidentally changed to a member, and took advantage of that thinking I could say and do anything I wanted to around you.

Also, Dragonkilla76, I am sorry for calling you a kissup to emmy infront of metazard. I didn't mean to take out all my anger towards you, and know you got upset after I said that. I was just trying to find someone to pick on, and I chose you. Hope it didn't do too much damage with our friendship, but I showed no anger to you before, and it came out as a big shock to you. Never thought of directing words as painful as that towards you, and that is why I want to apologize.

I want to say I am sorry to Mcmanaway1 as well. You were probably the best friend I have ever had online, and it was so fun to make cool redstone contraptions together. I have been a jerk to all your friends, and never expected that to go to you directly. I have been really immature afterwards, and I have not been the same. I really want to start making new redstone stuff with you, and hanging out on the server together without annoying you. I hope we will be able to become friends again sometime after this post is released.

I just want to apologize to everyone else I have hurt in other ways. Like if I denied from helping you, didn't trade with you, constantly killed you and harassed you in PVP, and made it seem my work is much more important then helping other players. I could have handled some situations I handled badly in an easier way.

I hope with this letter, I can relax a bit more and be able to become the person I used to be again. And I hope this topic can slowly close up with wounds I have caused. I couldn't make an apology to everyone, but everyone who I have dissed, I want to become a good person to you again.

Best Regards,
MattJTV