2013-03-17, 06:14 AM
Now that I'm on the computer, i'd like to expand.
I say things I don't mean. Quite a bit. I never know if it is me saying them, or hormones >.<
When people say, "You've changed" I gain a crack. A few weeks ago, I shattered. Chall was there. He saw me at my worst. The day after, things were odd, to say the least. I got a strange feeling... of euphoria. I got a lot of newfound confidence. I realized something was holding all that in. No, it does NOT mean whenever people said I changed that it was a good thing. Every comment I got sent me deeper into sadness. A lot of them made me cry. It was probably me being banned. Inspiron, someone who I liked, respected and tried for months to get to like me, banned me. Banned me from the one thing in my life at the time that brought me joy. Banned me because of something I said that I didn't mean. Something I said that I won't look back and laugh about. I'm striving for a chance to become staff of the server.
It hurts. Watching all of my friends become staff, rise to the top, while I sit there, chained to the ground for a terrible mistake I made in the past.
But I replace that sadness with joy, and happiness.
I've decided that I'm going to give some of my joy away. I'm starting a "Boo's School" at which I will train people who have been jailed a lot to be better, give help to new members, teach people about commands, play fun minecraft games, and a lot more.
I'd have a hotel next to it called "Boo's House for the Homeless"
Anyone who is homeless could stay there, and I'd provide supplies for them that I bought with my real iron.
I'd strive to be the best superdonater.
I say things I don't mean. Quite a bit. I never know if it is me saying them, or hormones >.<
When people say, "You've changed" I gain a crack. A few weeks ago, I shattered. Chall was there. He saw me at my worst. The day after, things were odd, to say the least. I got a strange feeling... of euphoria. I got a lot of newfound confidence. I realized something was holding all that in. No, it does NOT mean whenever people said I changed that it was a good thing. Every comment I got sent me deeper into sadness. A lot of them made me cry. It was probably me being banned. Inspiron, someone who I liked, respected and tried for months to get to like me, banned me. Banned me from the one thing in my life at the time that brought me joy. Banned me because of something I said that I didn't mean. Something I said that I won't look back and laugh about. I'm striving for a chance to become staff of the server.
It hurts. Watching all of my friends become staff, rise to the top, while I sit there, chained to the ground for a terrible mistake I made in the past.
But I replace that sadness with joy, and happiness.
I've decided that I'm going to give some of my joy away. I'm starting a "Boo's School" at which I will train people who have been jailed a lot to be better, give help to new members, teach people about commands, play fun minecraft games, and a lot more.
I'd have a hotel next to it called "Boo's House for the Homeless"
Anyone who is homeless could stay there, and I'd provide supplies for them that I bought with my real iron.
I'd strive to be the best superdonater.
GOODBYE