2014-02-01, 02:20 AM
Dear McTopia Community.
Over the last 2 years on the server, I have tried my hardest to keep it clean, nice and respectful. In response, I get treated that way too. It's a trend everyone on the server has been, and will mostly continue to follow into the future.
But lately I have changed. I am more (wrongly and stupidly) opinionated, and I have specifically targeted players for things that are not deserving of my often rant-like posts. They are bad, and I was worse.
I would like to personally apologise to:
125, for my very hurtful actions earlier this month. Please read the "Report a player" section for more information, and my extended apology
MattJTV, For attacking you under what I thought was peer pressure, but I now am clueless of my reasoning behind my constant criticism towards you. My personal attacks to you on the forums are not the way I am normally, and are not ever going to happen again.
Qu3sti0nMark, For hurtful comments I have made on the server. Again, they were unfounded and unfunny. I believe you will become a very nice player.
I also want to apologise to every single player and forum contributor who has had to see my vile posts I have publicly shared. You should never be subjected to such mean words about your friends on the server. There is no excuse or justification for my attitude, no matter how tired, stressed or upset I may be. I am disappointed in my actions, words and reactions to situations that could easily be taken care of by stepping away from the keyboard and not writing or partaking in activities when my usually high judgement is impaired or temporarily absent. (It is 12:05am my time as I type this sentence).
I, like many people, am still learning, and I have always preached the ways of learning through your mistakes. This is not the first time I have made a mistake on the internet, and it won't be the last.By simply acknowledging that I have made an error, and I will do all in my power to make sure this never occurs again, is not enough wording to really convey how serious I am that this behaviour ceases immediately. I personally give you permission to bump this subject if I become as unruly and spoilt as I was before. For the future forum moderators, blame it on me, and only on me. I encourage you to point out where I am wrong, as I will keep forcing my opinions onto people. This is not cool, and never will be. Stop me if this happens again. Please.
Future Proofing over...
I also assure you that my actions are equivalent to a barnyard animal compared to my fellow staff members during the same period, and most of them have never broken a rule. These people were chosen to serve you, as I am. Instead of acting my shoe size (11 US, in case you are curious), I will act my rapidly increasing age. I am actively attempting to better myself, as my behaviour is not up to scratch.
I hope you accept my apology, as it is truly from the bottom of my heart. I am repairing myself, I am really trying.
I may not be on for the next few days, I really need to think over my options moving forward. I will return, and in a better state of mind.
I promise.
PS: I leave you with this, it is something I often think about, but I feel is appropriate to how I feel right now.
It doesn't matter what happens, it's what you do to change it that does. My Dad, Unknown Date.
Over the last 2 years on the server, I have tried my hardest to keep it clean, nice and respectful. In response, I get treated that way too. It's a trend everyone on the server has been, and will mostly continue to follow into the future.
But lately I have changed. I am more (wrongly and stupidly) opinionated, and I have specifically targeted players for things that are not deserving of my often rant-like posts. They are bad, and I was worse.
I would like to personally apologise to:
125, for my very hurtful actions earlier this month. Please read the "Report a player" section for more information, and my extended apology
MattJTV, For attacking you under what I thought was peer pressure, but I now am clueless of my reasoning behind my constant criticism towards you. My personal attacks to you on the forums are not the way I am normally, and are not ever going to happen again.
Qu3sti0nMark, For hurtful comments I have made on the server. Again, they were unfounded and unfunny. I believe you will become a very nice player.
I also want to apologise to every single player and forum contributor who has had to see my vile posts I have publicly shared. You should never be subjected to such mean words about your friends on the server. There is no excuse or justification for my attitude, no matter how tired, stressed or upset I may be. I am disappointed in my actions, words and reactions to situations that could easily be taken care of by stepping away from the keyboard and not writing or partaking in activities when my usually high judgement is impaired or temporarily absent. (It is 12:05am my time as I type this sentence).
I, like many people, am still learning, and I have always preached the ways of learning through your mistakes. This is not the first time I have made a mistake on the internet, and it won't be the last.By simply acknowledging that I have made an error, and I will do all in my power to make sure this never occurs again, is not enough wording to really convey how serious I am that this behaviour ceases immediately. I personally give you permission to bump this subject if I become as unruly and spoilt as I was before. For the future forum moderators, blame it on me, and only on me. I encourage you to point out where I am wrong, as I will keep forcing my opinions onto people. This is not cool, and never will be. Stop me if this happens again. Please.
Future Proofing over...
I also assure you that my actions are equivalent to a barnyard animal compared to my fellow staff members during the same period, and most of them have never broken a rule. These people were chosen to serve you, as I am. Instead of acting my shoe size (11 US, in case you are curious), I will act my rapidly increasing age. I am actively attempting to better myself, as my behaviour is not up to scratch.
I hope you accept my apology, as it is truly from the bottom of my heart. I am repairing myself, I am really trying.
I may not be on for the next few days, I really need to think over my options moving forward. I will return, and in a better state of mind.
I promise.
PS: I leave you with this, it is something I often think about, but I feel is appropriate to how I feel right now.
It doesn't matter what happens, it's what you do to change it that does. My Dad, Unknown Date.
