My returning and apology

[xXSlurpieXx]

Ok. I bet most of you know me, and whether you hate me or like me I'd really appreciate you reading this.

Recently on the server I've felt excluded for whatever reasons. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, but I hate it and I'd really like to become a more accepted part of the McTopia community.

I've done my fair share of helping out, and trying to stop arguments but recently I feel like I'm just making more. I know that's one of my big problems, but I'd really appreciate it if you guys would tell me other flaws I have, so I can try to correct them.

I started off not caring whether I got staff or not, which was bliss, and I truthfully wish I could go back to that. I've been involved for just over three years now and I'm starting to see newer members gain ranks. I'm getting jealous, another quality I hate having and I'm stepping back into the running. I know it will take time to regain your trust and kindness, but for me it's something I'll just have to deal with.

What I'm having trouble with is the amount of time I can be on the server. As of right now, I'm only aloud on the weekends, and that's the ONLY time I can get on. In a few weeks I should be on more frequently, but for now it's staying that way. I would like to point out you won't see much of me, but I will be making a huge attempt to get on as much as possible.

Finally, I ask two things of you. For 1, when I get on, don't immediately start annoying me. I have a short fuse on my temper (Another thing I dislike about myself) and I can't deal with much right now. For example "eww" when I get on hurts more than you think... The second thing is to write below what I'm doing wrong. I've already listed two, (My temper, and my lust for staff)

Please please PLEASE try to work with me. This server has become more than just a game for me and the people on it have DEFINITELY become more than just players. I hope to see you all on the server!
Thanks,
-Slurp

P.S. Some of you that I know I've been having trouble with, I will be sending or have sent a message with a specific apology.

[tobiii1004]

Full, unbiased support, I'm proud of you.

[xXSlurpieXx]

tobiii1004 wrote:Full, unbiased support, I'm proud of you.

Thanks.

[1258933]

your cool

[xXSlurpieXx]

1258933 wrote:your cool

Thanks xD, but I've got some issues I need to work out.

By the way, what the heck am I supposed to call you? You got a preference on what numbers I should use?

[Metazard]

There's nothing wrong with wanting staff, everyone, either deep down or obvious, has a lust for power, who would want to be at the bottom of the food chain? You say you get jealous when people get new ranks and I understand that because last year two mods and a super donor got upgraded to staff and for a still unknown reason I, the other mod who got it BEFORE Robby (lol2good4urobby) didn't. But if I could have gone back and said you were gonna get it anyways, I think I would have been less confused.

Also, there's nothing wrong with a hot temper either, you just need to think when something bad happens - What happens, happens. Not everything is going to be perfect and people are going to be idiots and unfortunately this is the Internet and there's nothing we can do to change it, so appreciate those that don't annoy you, that always stick by you, you know who I'm talking about.

[kittens1234]

i've noticed that you have quite explosive reactions
it doesn't really bother me
but it might bother other people.

[xXSlurpieXx]

I have had explosive reactions because of a few individuals. I'm working to become better friends with them.